I also found something of interest while reading Freyja's myths lastnight. She was married to a man, Odh, who travelled for long periods of time, and she would stay behind and cried. She must have loved him very much, regardless of her reputation to be quite... promiscuous? I think perhaps she took interest in me because I'm going through something similar with Tom being away at the moment. If my tears turn to gold like her's did, I'd be able to pay for uni and get my laptop...

I want to set up a little altar in honor of her. I'm thinking a nice big amber or gold candle, a nice delicate piece of amber and red material, a painting of her (which I'm in the brainstorming stages of) and, a pretty little bowl for offerings, some sandalwood incense and some nice flowers. At least to begin with. I think she will like that.

I had an entry in my head last night, but I was too lazy to write anything as it was quite lengthy... and now I have forgot everything I wanted to make a point of writing save one incident.. one incident I can't remember very well. Figures.

I had a dream the other night. And remembering that I even dreamed is something that only happen occasionally for me. Most details of the dream are hazy, at best, but the dream itself has sparked on a search for something.

I dreamed of Thor and Freyja. Deities showing up in dreams is a rare occurrence for me. Once a handful of years ago I had something come to me in a dream, but I think it was a guide or a form of my inner self, as I have never found a Goddess anywhere in history that was anything like her. So, the fact I had a dream that involved two deities, from a pantheon I had not given much thought to in the past actually happened is pretty surprising.

I don't remember what the dream was about at all. I remember seeing Thor in front of my bed speaking to me (I have no idea what was actually being said), and in true bizzaro-style of any dreams I have ever remembered, he hands me the phone and I am on the phone talking to Freyja (and don't remember the conversation).

I've been on the net searching up any information I can find on the two of them. Perhaps something will jog my memory, or maybe they will come to me again and my memory won't fail me next time. I have this urge to paint them both, so I'm going to get some new acrylics and some canvas and start doing that in my spare time.

I'm mainly focusing on Freyja at the moment. While I didn't even see her in the dream, only spoke to her on the phone (lol, gosh that sounds weird..) I resonate with her when I read about her, and since the dream, the family cat (who either ignored my existence, or runs off when I try and pat her unless i come with dinner...) is very nice to me. Comes up and smooches and wants me to give her lavishes of attention. Freyja is associated with cats (they draw her chariot, legend says).

I'm going to keep open. Maybe try and reach out to Them. Make an offering and see if I 'bump' into Her or Him again.

I identify with both of them personality-wise the more I read about them. I've also began looking into Asatru and Non-Asatru spiritual paths that have Norse Deities.

Apologies again for my lack of writing... I've become kind of annoyed at the un-user friendly and seemingly disorganized set up of Covenspace. At this point, I invite you call to come visit me on livejournal, or myspace.

MySpace: http://www.myspace.com/inkywitch 

LiveJournal: http://tribalesque.livejournal.com/

I'd love to keep contact, especially with the other Australia and Melbourne pagans I have met here. I still check my covenspace occasionally, however the setup annoys me, and I prefer to use my LJ or MySpace to keep in contact with people. 

My apologies, everyone, for my absence here. My partner lost his job, and money has been a massive issue for the last month or so, which means my mind has be on nothing else. I'm still in the process of getting everything back in order, so I haven't left myself much time to think about anything other than getting back to normal and not owing people any money.

Whenever I have had a moment to think, it's always about wondering how long this world is going to last. Everyday, I see some headline about polar ice caps melting at a much faster rate, tsunami over here, tidal wave over here, earthquake over there... We even had Australia's entire east or west coast closed because of the recent earthquake and tidal wave disaster not far from our shores. We've been lucky so far, but that will only last a short while unless something is done about it. I hear news on a daily basis on how the world is dying.. yet I don't hear much on what the hell people are doing to fix it. John Howard's plan of action is going to take too long, and involves the BRILLIANT (note: sarcasm) idea of building a nuclear power plant here in Melbourne. If he wants a fucking nuclear power plant, fucking build it near HIS HOME.

I'm so tired of it all. Doing thing to help the environment seems like such a pointless battle with so many others not giving a shit, and our government trying to convince us they actually know what they are doing..  I'm just.. so tired. And to be honest, I'm actually scared. It is getting serious. And not enough people seem to actually want to accept that!

If you were to plan your own Wedding or Funeral ceremony, would you create two separate ceremonies for pagan and non-pagan folk, or would you just plan a ceremony around your beliefs. How would you feel if any non-pagan friends or family did not wish to attend such a ceremony?

Well, as for marriage, I'd probably only have one ceremony conducted by a celebrant, a non-religious ceremony with a few subtle Pagan influences here and there. I wouldn't stand for a Catholic or Armenian Orthodox wedding, as both require me to convert and be apart of their religion/church for a certain period before they would agree to wed us, which I find a nauseating idea. Luckily, my partner has no plans to try and please his mother (Catholic) or his farther (Armenian Orthodox), and only wished to please his Bride, and have a damn good party for the guests.
A massive reception is a must. Big feast with many, many merriments, lovely food and a bit of dancing!

I think the real magic of a wedding happens on the honeymoon. Personally, I feel the ceremony and reception is as much for the parents, and guests as it is for the couple. The honeymoon however, is a private, intimate time for the couple to really reach a deeper bond and the vows really sink in.

As for my funeral, I also want it non-religious. Not because I don't want to offend any uptight people I know (and love), but because I don't see/feel it is necessary to bring my spiritual beliefs into it. They are life events, yes... not really religious ones, in my mind. And just because they are life events, doesn't make them any less important to my growth in all aspects. The only plans I have for my funeral is a letter I plan to write, I want it read (by someone I'm close to, and who can handle speaking at my funeral). A personal message to hopefully comfort those I have to leave behind. And I want everyone to feast and support each other during the wake! In my will, I will be leaving a few special gifts to people, most for my children, and a few items to charity. And since a viking burial is illegal nowadays in this Country, if I'm not in a country that allows it, I'd like to be cremated and split between my children to do with as they see fit (scatter, keep in a vessel, bring me out in a urn on Samhain to decorate the ancestor altar, lol... whatever they feel they want).

If I was to have more of my spiritual beliefs prevail and be focus of these occasions and loved ones refused to come (well, to the wedding... I don't think I would really be in a position to mind at my funeral), I'd probably feel a little hurt, and disappointed - but each to their own. I'd be more upset if they came when they didn't want to be there and ruined the day for me.